I just finished The Gifts Of Imperfection by Brene Brown for the fourth time. This time I had the privilege of sharing it with 11 other women for 10 weeks in a book club setting. These women chose to be vulnerable with me and each other. I am so humbled to have been able to facilitate this journey and I learned so much from them. I was able to stretch myself spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I’m daily choosing that I am enough. That where I am in life is enough. That the size of my house, the car I drive, and the clothes I wear are enough. I’m done hustling for “worthiness” as Brene calls it. The last few chapters talk about; what we want to do, does not have to be put on the back burner. It’s ok to claim two professions or hobbies. We can say we are a Real Estate agent/painter or a doctor/gardener. Just because if what we are passionate about doesn’t make us a living doesn’t mean we should not do it or not be able to claim that it is who we are or what we love. For a long time I’ve said, “I’m a Stay At Home Mom,” and that’s it. Yes, I’ve been a wife and a mom for almost half of my life but I honestly still haven’t decided what I want to be when I grow up. For a long time I have let society and myself tell me that unless I have a BA or am making $$$$$$$ a year then what I do doesn’t hold much value. I’m just a mom.

After reading Guidepost 9 tonight I can say I’m an Entrepreneur/3 time surrogate/worship leader/writer/blogger/student/amateur chef (our Chipotle salmon dish with black bean succotash that I made up tonight was delish!). I’m now a Lunch Lady/referee/and many a days a Taxi driver. She helped me realize that no matter what we “do for a living” we need to make sure we are finding time to do what we love and are passionate about it. The best part is, when we do what we love our life becomes meaningful. I don’t write to become famous, I write because I love it. I can’t move on in life until I have put my thoughts to paper sometimes. I don’t sing in church because I’m supposed to. I sing and attempt to lead people in worship because it moves me and draws me closer to God more than anything else I’ve ever experienced. Some days I believe I’m at the brink of finding what I ‘m supposed to do with myself now that my 3 kids do not need me 24/7. Until then I’m going to live my life with meaning, use my God given talents and do the fun and mundane to the Glory of God.